Expectations and Uncertainties

It is the first night, he can not sleep. After hours of lying still and many attempts to induce sleep, he gives up on trying to sleep. He looks at the clock, it reads 4am. He is thinking, it is too early to be up, he was hoping to have been woken up by the alarm he had set. It will not sound for another three hours.  It is more than just adjusting to the time difference, it is more than the uncomfortable breeze being produced by the fan next to his bed or adjusting to the bed itself, he concludes. He is feeling anxious, anxious to start the day but he is also feeling alone, he admits. He is playing out a thousand scenarios in his head, some of which frankly make him uneasy, but others bring a smile to his face and happy memories of times past. It all seems familiar and strange to him at the same time. He finds it comforting to be up at this ungodly hour and to be fully engaged in his thoughts as he is now. Yet time seems to pass in an ever unrelenting slow pace. He looks ...

            It is exactly a week since graduation, day after day I sit in solemn reflection. My parents, my self, my friends and the general society, all have expectations of me and what I should be doing with my life. Expectations big or small, it does not matter, I need to be moving. Frankly, I am getting fed up with the question; What are you going to do now? My uncertainty of the future greatly influence my response, most times I tell them what I can be sure of, that is at least I have the next year figured out.             I do have to confess I love this feeling of uncertainty, its like a high. That must be why I take a casual attitude to planning, I love to see events unfold without knowing exactly what will happen next. Uncertainty is not I bad thing. Yes, it can be scary and even tormenting, but it can also be very liberating. It opens a world of events and opportunities, anything, absolutely anything is possible. I a...